Sunday, March 15, 2009

Need a stiff drink

I sincerely wish that I am an idiot. I worry less about life, and won't have to be frustrated by the speed of things going around me that is spiriling out of control.

I seriously hate to be able to forecast the future. Shit man.

I need some Volka tonight.

On a side note, Got this from a facebook application about ppl who is born on sept 14. Interesting,90% accurate.

Suave and compromising. <---Yeahhhh, I am damn Suave

Careful, cautious and organized.<---Not with my room apparently, but other things, abit. Esp about r/s

Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn.<---Wah, my friends would agree with this

Quiet but able to talk well. <---Depends, I am always able to talk well. I like to talk but sometimes I am also quite silent with strangers.

Calm and cool.<---I am cool, usually calm, unless dealing with jerks

Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest.<---quite true, I am not always honest, I cannot even be honest with my own feelings.

Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around.Secretive<---Good points is quite accurate, I love to look for info too much, and quite secretive. Know too many stupid secrets

Loves sports, leisure and traveling.<--Love sports but suck at it

Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.<---wah, this part hor, I kena complain by many ppl before, esp gals, don't like to show emotions infront of the ladies, very malu one leh. And I am super duper choosy in relationships, stupid virgos, always like that.


I am not afraid of idiots, as it is all right to be an idiot in my opinion. But what I fear is that when you peel the mask off the face of anybody, what they are hiding underneath is not a idiotic looking grin, but a sneer.

Around a decade ago, one of my buddies once stated that I sucked at judging people’s characters. Years later, I matured and I developed an uncanny sense of seeing a person’s real character. But this is a totally useless ability. It didn’t bring joy to me, but instead, endless agony. I am able to see the darkest region of a person’s heart through a lot of observation, and I am always goddamn accurate.

I am able to guess things before I am told, just because I take notice of my surroundings. I realized that people are prone to doing the same things over and over again, without realizing it at all.

Why have it not brought me any joy, but instead suffering? When you realized the true extend of the word “ugly” would you be able to understand me. Sometimes I get turned off, but a few times, I am truly disgusted and revolted by the way another human being is thinking. And this scares the crap out of me.

I fear that I would become like the ugliest mind I see also. I already know that I will never ever be a saint, but I do not want to have an ugly face when my smile is torn down also. I fear that one day, I will become the kind of person I despised the most.

I fear knowing how people think.

I fear thinking.

And I fear that people are unable to see what I see. It is always not too good to know so much.

I hope I am insane, so at least the odds of me being wrong is higher.

I am tired.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Stupid women

Before I get shoot down by anybody for this article, let me clarify myself first.

YES, I think you women are freaking damn dumb, not majority of you, but a substantial amount of you that convinced me to write this article. When I am writing this, I admit I can’t hold back the feeling of contempt and disgust about the mindset of many ladies.

You girls always want someone who is nice, protective of you, caring, understanding, and the works. Yet when I give such a guy to you, you prefer to choose another guy whom is totally not in the same league as him. You all always prefer the sweet words of a guy who is obviously trying to play you out, preferring lies over truth, charm over honesty, and swagger over results.

You know what?


When a guy gives his all for you, you acted coyly, when one goes after you with bull-blazing passion, you accepted him with rashly without thinking it through your head. Equally bad are your gossipy friends that are equally dumb, that have only given you nothing but awful lousy advices like the true bimbos they are? Not to say, women can’t give good advice, but in love matters, you either look for another lady who is really smart enough to judge everything accurately rather than shriek and think that they are some goddamn love guru. Often your girlfriends get suckered in by the same guy that suckered you in also. This is an advice, next time just ask a close male friend of yours whom isn’t interested in you at all about your potential suitors. He probably would be able to judge everything better than your stupid bimbo girlfriends.

Is what I am saying coming true? Those girls aren’t equipped with an ADR? Asshole-detection-radar? Guys are biased, we can see this particular individual, and don’t like him immediately. We are able to tell if the dude is a jerk, or has a hidden agenda. I have been able to detect quite a number throughout the years, and amusingly, other guys always have the same particular nagging feeling about the same individual that we think is a jerk. And the point is, we are always correct.

They say you girls have woman’s intuition, bullcrap, it works for nuts. When was the last time it worked sister? Even when it works, and the alarm goes blaring and blazing red, you ladies do nothing but shrug your shoulders and think everything will work out eventually. A leopard doesn’t change its spots that fast, Keep thinking that you are the one that is going to change him. Good luck, the previous few girlfriends he cheated also felt the same way till either he dumped them or they woke up from their stupor themselves. Those that woke up are the lucky ones.

They say that love is blind. I agree.

I have another saying. It is because people refused to open their goddamn eyes. Maybe if you girls don’t open your eyes wider and think with your head instead of your heart for once, maybe there would be a lot less jerks in this world. I still can’t understand woman, if one have to lie and sweet-talk em all the way to be able to impress them, honestly, I rather be gay. The reasoning is not valid at all, it is like me saying that I hate pain, yet I keep on pulling off my armpit hair out, or me saying that I am totally not gay, just that I happen to like guys.(not true btw, I am using an analogy, cause sadly, I am 101% straight)

Don’t get me wrong, I hate jerks more than I hate stupid women. But sometimes, life is like economics, there is demand, there is supply. Just like fur coats, people know how cruel it is to buy one, yet they still buy it. Can you girls just be slightly less naïve for once?

For the rest of the nice guys, my final words for you is that, Love is not about trying to survive the storm, but more of learning how to dance in the rain.

(P.S, NO, I didn't get dumped. I just couldn't take the stupidity of some ppl anymore. Pls freaking wake up your idea.)